Sickness Abounds!!

Hi Everyone,
I wanted to check in and let you know that I have not given up on blogging. Lots of things have been going on with me. Most notably, a lot of work and two, yes two bouts of pretty rough sickness already in this brand new year. In the first week of 2013 I had what I'm fairly positive was bronchitis. A nasty case of it at that, now this week, 2013 has so graciously blessed me with an ugly round of strep throat. I'm going on day 3 round 2 of antibiotics for the year, and my throat off and on feels like a gang of tiny cowboys ran inside it, and sliced it up with their bowie knives. Ok, maybe I have been reading a little too much of Louis L'Amour.
In between my rounds of sickness I have been working and I am fortunate enough to be allowed to read in my down time at work. Since I am a home health worker, and the elderly like to sleep and or be left alone a lot of the time, there is a lot of down time. I would say the majority of my day, depending on the case I am working, is spent alone in a small room, where I am better not seen or heard. I understand that if I am fortunate enough to live to be old, and have family who care enough and have the means to let me live in my home, that I may not want every new face in town staring at me while I watch the Price is Right. I get that they want me out of their way so that they can keep as much independence as possible, also, in the down time I escape to the old west, so its a win win. It can be a lonely job though, and monotonous, as I have mentioned before, I think, it wasn't my first choice. Nonetheless, I am liking it. I am improving our financial situation, when I actually get to go in that is. It also gets me out of the quiet and lonely house. One day the house will be teeming with little foster kiddos who are hollering my name and wanting random kiddo things, and I will probably reminisce about the quiet days I spent reading and trying not to breathe to loudly, while listening for the smallest noise in someone else's home. My job is very valid, I keep people out of nursing homes, and I am not a fan of those at all, so it is important work that I do y'all.
One more random thought, since I seem to have a thought regarding our childless situation in every post, here is my infertile thought for the day.
Sometimes, when I think about the logics of us not having children, I get a little scared. We plan on fostering and possibly adopting, but if the adoption road doesn't pan out for us and we make it to a ripe old age with no forever children, what will happen to us? When we are too old to drive ourselves to the dr., with no children, who will I call and say, we need a ride? Who will be there to notice that I need a little extra help remembering to take my medicine or pay the electric bill? God forbid that Kent or I is left alone, when one passes, who will there be to call and check if the remaining one is doing ok? Who will we have to lean on? Will we be forced to go to a nursing home way before we actually would have to if there was someone to help? Will we be a burden to some niece or nephew, who has enough on their plate with one of our siblings, who will also be aging? It scares me a lot when I think of it, so I try not to often. I know that God has plans for us now, and surely he will then. Maybe he has a beautiful plan for the end of this life for us that doesn't end with being dependent. Maybe our adoption plans will go through x12 and there will be an abundance of children and grand children who all love us so much that we will be the best taken care of old geezers ever. It's just one of those things that someday could be an issue. I worry about a life with out family when we are old, but I know that God will provide. Who knows we could turn in to the adoptive version of the Duggars, if that is what God wants of us, we are willing, but we may need a bigger house.